I should have enough in my trunk for everybody.
Lets walk through the line up one more time.
Its that serious.
Its that serious.
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PS - What other song could possibly be the first on the mixtape? Yeah... I don't know either.
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Where do I begin?...
I guess it's only proper to first clear the air and say that this is in no way an angry blog post. In reality, this doesn't even concern the majority of my readers. So why post it?... I'm not really sure. I felt compelled to and I wasn't willing to risk not writing it then regretting my decision in the future. So here it is. Try reading this as if you're a completely oblivious party, not at all involved; maybe you'll recieve it better and further understand my position.
This is in response to the post that you, Ms. Hargette, wrote about a so-called anonymous person that you've encountered. I have every reason to believe that person is me, however, if I'm wrong in my assumption, I apologize. Recently, I've taken on a very non-confrontational approach to life, and responding to a post such as yours would never cross my mind. For one reason or another, this was not the case this time.
I guess what confuses my simple mind is why you find it necessary to continue to write such negative posts about me. You claim that you've cut ties with me, which is true (more or less), yet I'm clearly still something that you find important enough to share with all of those who read your blog. I suppose I should be flattered, but as you can imagine, I find that difficult given the nature in which I'm spoken of on your blog. You claim that its always in love, however its never anything positve. Claim that you want me to grow as a man, yet always can be relied on to expose my flaws to parties uninvolved. Its crazy to me that you always get your information about me from someone else. You say that you wish me the best, yet you show no interest in my improvement and pride yourself in the fact that you don't speak to me. Which brings me to my next point...
Probably around the same time that you decided to cut ties with me, I decided to cut ties with you. I had many conversations with people close to me about my situation and each time we came to the same conclusion: though she has every reason to be upset if fhe chooses, some people prefer you to be unhappy. They're at peace when your life is in chaos. How else can you explain why some people in your life only have negative things to say to/about you? Everyone agreed that maybe you're one of those people. Not to all, maybe just to me. Either way, I'm down on myself far too often to have to deal with your criticism and exposure as well.
Contrary to what you may think, you're not helping. But its okay, because you're not making it worse either. I've known myself for 20 years; you've known me for a little less than 1. I would elaborate on where that places the significance of your opinion of me, but I fear if I did that, this post would take a sharp left into hostility, and that's just not what I'm trying to do.
Also, you don't know what I'm doing with my life or what I go through on a daily basis. To say that I'm "in the same mind set you've had since a child" and "making no attempt at gaining control" is the biggest "F**k You!" I've gotten in while. I'll leave it at that. That may have been the most upsetting part of your post, but then I thought about how little you know about me currently, and found humor in the fact that you could make comments like that with such conviction.
I'm not sure how you gained such control of your life to the point that you feel you're so perfect you can right posts about how disapointed you are in others, but know that if you wrote a book about it, I'd read it.
Also know that any of future posts regarding me or anything else, are truly for those who read you're blog. I'm no longer one of them.
I tried my best to keep this as respectful and professional as possible, and in my opinion, I've succeeded in doing so.
Thank you.
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Okay, so where to I start on this one...
I'm a BIG Little Brother fan. I was put on to them Summer 2006 (I think) and they've been my every-mood music since then. Well they have this song with this cat named Drake called "Don't You Have a Man" and its really good. I'm pretty sure its in my Top 25 Most Played playlist on my iPod. That's completely irrelevant but what I'm getting at is, while listening to the song a couple months ago, I was told by a hip hop enthusiast that Drake was the s**t and that I should start listenting to him. Instead of taking the advice immediately, I kind of blew it off and forgot about it.
Last weekend, I was at my boy's crib for his shorty's birthday and somehow found myself in a conversation with some people about how dope of a rapper Drake is... unfortunately, I had nothing to say. So I looked around. Downloaded the album. And son is the truth. Period. His mixtape is so good and he can spit... like, REALLY spit.
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and my boy Devon showed me this video while we were at work today and the song's been stuck in my head since then.
Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
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Ask yourself...
What do Wale, A Tribe Called Quest, Nas, Mos Def, Just Blaze, De La Soul, Rakim, Method Man & Redman, Raekwon & Ghostface, The Pharcyde, Santogold, The Cool Kids, Dead Prez, Immortal Technique, MF Doom, Afrika Bambaataa, DJ Green Lantern, Kidz In The Hall, Kid Sister, and Jay Electronica have in common?
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Its been a while since I’ve written a personal post so I figured why not. Today was a strange a** day. Everyone has good days and bad days, and occasionally when we can’t seem to find anything that stimulates our minds for an extended period of time, we have “blah” days. Those are the days where when 7:30 PM rolls around and someone asks us how our day was, the first response that comes to mind is “Uhh… it was aight, I guess.” I hope someone feels me on that and I’m not the only one who has days like that. Basically, I said all of that to say that today was neither of the three. I haven’t quite decided on an appropriate title for days like today. I’ll try my best to explain the reasons why.
To start, here are two quotes to let you know where I’m going with this. If the quotes don’t interest you, neither will this post.
“The little things make me mad.”
“I’m a pretty simple guy. It doesn’t take a lot to please me.”
The first was said this morning by a friend. My response to this statement was that there’s a war going on as we speak and a f**king Great Wall of America is being built on our southern border, and we can’t let little stuff get to us. Sounds crazy now that I’ve typed it, but it was the best advice I could give at 7:45 in the morning. However, after getting through a day of enough ups and downs that there should be a height requirement, I realized that I have the same problem. My friend deals with his issues by verbalizing them to everyone he sees during the next hour, and letting them know every detailed of what’s pissed him off. Way too much effort for something small in my opinion. I handle little s**t differently, though. I don’t say anything but THINK AND THINK AND THINK AND THINK… until it prevents me from being able to focus on important things.
Its not just things that make me mad either. Sometimes what people do or say just disturbs the s**t out of me and I’ll get stuck trying to analyze someone else’s thought process; something I’m not qualified nor have the time to do.
Like I said, I’m an easy pleaser. Anyone I’ve ever been in a relationship with and my close friends know exactly what makes me happy. It’s sad to say but the list isn’t that long and it’s all pretty simple s**t. I enjoy being happy. But at the same time, I’m learning that it doesn’t take a lot to upset me either. I honestly don’t know why… Maybe I just need to man up and stop caring so much. I’ll admit, that sounds f**kin’ ridiculous, but sweatin’ s**t is getting old and I’d really like to get out of the habit of being the kid who trips over petty s**t, or worse, petty people.
I’m done for tonight. Got work in the morning. I’m supposed to be going to Philly tomorrow but after today, I don’t know if that’s going down. I’m tempted to pack a duffel bag, charge the iPod, buy a pack of cloves, and just drive….
I’ll let you know how it goes.
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